Is a boring plus worry plus angry midnight~

How to solve the problem???
Once again...didn't answer my call,didn't reply my message,didn't call me or find me after 10am!!!How about my feeling and how about your feeling...I'm more interest in your weird feeling...Would u feel worry when u can't find me or contact with me oneday???That's all my feeling~Worry about you just because you are a person abord,nobody takecare of you;angry with you just because you seems like don't care about my feeling;worry about you just because i'm not always at your side,you will feel lonely,feel helpless...Not i like to doubt you,when a thing that u did it too many times,that will make me to guess it,to find the answer myself,so doubt is for sure....I'm really hate the damn feeling!!!But what can i do??!!!wtf!!!Is nothing,waiting for tomorrow,waiting you are "appear"in this world again....After that for sure is will begin a big war,fighting...That break but improve our relationship also~Must thanks for the feeling??!!wth!!!something wrong....

WisH tO sEE yOur imPRovemeNT~!!

幸福的滋味

跟你在一起,也是一种幸福~
Today is 15th of december...oh~what a happiness day...we belongs each other 5 years already!!!Since 15th december of year 2004~hoho!!!It's really a very long journey for me and u!!!We fight,we argue,we laugh,we hug,we kiss...even though sometimes we will break up,but we still love each other,we treasure our love...Sometimes u ll make me cry and feel dissapointed to u,but we solve it together,we face it together"~"I'm a short tempered girl,i scold u,i ignore u,i keep silent when we fight...those i'm trying to change now....SORRY for that hubby!!!muckss...I really love u so so so so much...I miss u,i wan u always be my side,but u fighthing for our future now...a long distance love that is not suffer,i put u in my heart,i'm thinking about u,i miss u most time before i went to sleep!!!lastly....hubby...what i can say is: I"M REALLY LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER!!!please takecare urself at australia...takecare everything since i'm not beside you...muckssssss~

i LOvE huBBy

困惑

其实我很困惑
我是让人讨厌么??还是不被大众接受？？还是我不是你们心里的理想对象？？还是因为神明？？为什么每次有人问起我，都说我是“他”朋友呢？说是女朋友不行吗。。有时想了想还真难过，更何况当面听到。。故作不在意不代表我不在乎，只是也不懂该说些什么，而“你”也不当作一回事。。换个角度想想我吧，把我的角色换成是你，又作何感想呢？？或许是你们不习惯那样的介绍方式吧，可我希望大家直说，况且我并没有那么差。。。最近担心你已成为我生活中越来越多份量的工作了，大家的自由，最害怕换来的是遥远的距离。。。大家越是自由越更放纵。。只希望你知道，虽然给了你自由，还是要少不了的行踪“报告”，我不在你身边更需要知道你在那的一举一动。。不瞒地说，这样的我们让我好没安全感。。。我相信你，可我又会怀疑你。。希望事情不会像我担心的那样，后果会让我伤心欲绝~

何时才能听到我是你女朋友

i'm a big loser~

LLLooosSSeeErRRR!!!!
I'm a BIG loser!!!i wish to slim down since 2 years ago...BUT but BUT but!!!!!!!how i looks like now as an "elephant"!!!HuH....i'm really fail in my slim down plan(but i dun hv any plan for it)~I like to eat so so so much!!!!Eating is one important part of my life...wuhuu!!!!When eating,i feel so happiness!!!I can't control myself ,even though i have eaten!!!so,keep eating,keep sleeping,keep playing,keep watching movie,keep singing,keep chatting...What a damn shit enjoying life!!!but is't the time to stop IT ALL!!!!!huh...ok,try my best start from now^...^Now alone in hostel and do my revision for FINAL EXAM~jia you to myself....

hAPPy aloNE but BorINg AloNE tOo~

I feel damn sad n dissapointed to u~

SaD
I don't know what i'm wrong,i even don't know what's the reason that make us break up...i wants to know it,but i don't have that "big" courage to ask him,because i know him too much...If i do that the reason i got sure is nothing except he is really want share the problem v me.I'm sad,just because i'm worried about u so angry v u then u wants to break up???Or i cant "ti liang"because u got problem???But u know that??u never told me about ur problem,then how can i know it and face it v u 2gether???!!!!I'm not a god pls...i cant know everything if u never told me k!!!!Is two days passed already,i'm waiting ur call,ur msg,or u find me online...but u didn't do that at all...So,what can i do???just wait for it,i think no,that not my fault,but i'm really sad now!!!!I "fu chu" so much to change myself,why eveytime i got is "nothing"!!!i always think that why i need a boyfriend he treat me like this,i forgive u all the time but u do it again...hurt me!!!are u feel so happy to hurt me!!!Oh...pls...pls think about my feeling...im not a wood,i got feeling too!!!!U will regret what u do for me...I SURE!!!!

DAmN MaN!!!!!!

My Feeling~

Sad plus dissapointed~
The result finally is coming out...sad is for my bad result and dissapointed is i'm feel so dissapointed to myself,i blame myself!!!Why i'm so lazy to study???Why i'm so stupid???Why i know i'm stupid already but not study hard before!!!CGPA more than three???First class???four flat???I never think that i can reach that kind of result...I think to change course before,but now i feel that i can take more better result if im study hard,no more lazy,no more excuse for my study!!!i think i can do it,so i hope my friend and my family ll support me always...

I ThiiNK I caN Do iT!!

surprise!!!

That was too surprise to me~
The 1st day i went back my sweet home after final exam,a lot of new 'MACHINE"i saw in my parent room!!WOW,so surprise!!!5!!!5 new machine inside their big room~That 1st thing in my mind is: how much they bought..??!!But is quite ok for those new machine,but some of the machine is useful,the others i think i no use for me~(but those are not buy for me)...haha!!!!!

I like this!!!For whole body relax!!!

Shake shake shake~shake ur body!!!shake out ur fat anywhere in ur body!!!!

Massage~Any part of ur body,but is self-service,i prefer the 1st one!!!

Keep fit plus massage!!!Put it on any part of ur body,shake ur body too~

Eyes relax machine~Just wear like normal glasses~Vibrate to release ur eye pressure!!!Good for near or short sighted~

Happy life~

怀旧

My handsome daddy~

One day,i saw a picture from my dad's table,that really a nice picture and is a precious souvenir!!!Got a very nice story behind the picture~My dad told me that,when he was young,he went to Singapore n work there as a mechanic.That picture was took in Singapore,with his best friend.Daddy is a very responsibility and takecare of his family man!!!He work hard when he was young,he try to give his family the best life as he can!!!He try to earn more many because he is the eldest in his family and he need to takecare of his whole 9 family members(include me).That sure was a very hard life for him and i belife, that was the most pressure for him.My dad already give me a very comfortable n freedom life after i born to this world,i no need worried about money,no need worried about my food and drink,no need worried about i ll be hungry and nothing to eat one day~So i Love my dad so much!!!Heard from my nanny, my mother and others relatives,when my dad was young,he is a very handsome guy,driving a heavy-duty motorcycle..wahahaha...is so....power and prestige!!!!And i know that he always drive his treasure motorcycle to fetch my mother to see movie and "pa tuo"...I think in that time was so romantic for them^-^

My dad is left-below,a little curly hair~

DAD~I LOVE U FOREVER!!!!!

放假了

虽然放假了，可是心情还是开心不起来
没心情放假是因为成绩，觉得自己笨，开始怀疑自己是否适合这条坎坷的路。原来一切的一切都没办法像我想像的那样简单~那天看到2nd year accounting course的housemate一脸苍白的样子真的吓到我了，好恐怖，感觉以后的路会比现在难更多倍。。考试期间几乎每个人都是睡不好的吧！！！好累哦。。。每个人脸上都好像被划上了黑黑的圈圈，好丑，当然，我自己也觉得自己好丑！！我知道现在再怎么不开心也没用了，只有开心地去面对，以后要勤劳些了！下个礼拜会是个紧张的日子，因为那是出成绩的日子，是个决定我以后要怎么走的日子，是个给我信心还是个让我极度沮丧的日子？？！！现在的心情是期待+害怕。。。


NotHInG GoNNa ChanGE juZ beCAusE mY FEelInG~

闷+慌

都是自己的错
今天考完第二个科目了，害怕，都怪自己为什么平时不读书，为什么就是改不掉懒惰的坏习惯，为什么喜欢临时抱佛脚，到考试了才会开始害怕，才会埋怨自己为什么不读书。不过一切都来不及了，这次真的好糟糕，好怕不及格，好怕重读，好怕浪费爸爸的钱，为什么之前不要酱想呢？？直到现在后悔已经没用了，只好更努力地考完剩下的三科~我真的是个无压力之人吗？一直以来都觉得自己没有压力，可是有时会因为小事就很情绪化。真的该改变下我的性格，我的作风。我知道自己很胆小，每次有事我都希望会有人帮我解决，就连小小的事我都不敢自己去做，去问，真没用！！！我会改，我真的会改，我不会再是不独立的小孩，我会勇敢，我会学着面对，我会努力向别人学习！！！

Trying to change...

乱

心情很乱，真的想不通
本以为距离对我和你不会有很大的问题，可是将近一年不见的我们，真的一点问题都没有吗？不知从记事开始，我发现我们很爱吵架，吵架的原因都是一些不该吵的事，大家都有自己的脾气，大家都有错的时候，可是我自认脾气已经改了很多，可为什么每次好好说话就要到吵架的地步？？吵以后婚姻，吵对方的看法，吵某些决定。。。直到昨天你说我们是不同世界，我是幸福的小孩，我没压力，我不用吃苦，对，这一切就是我爸妈给我的，那又怎样呢？我从来没有嫌弃过你没钱，没嫌弃过你没有用，没嫌弃过你在外国陪不到我，因为我知道你在那做的一切大部分都是为了我。昨天的我确实有错，我不该一再反问你告诉我的事情，我道歉因为我知道我错，那你又知道你错在哪里了吗？不知从何开始，我已经学会忍下来，学会不再追究某些事情，因为我知道你压力大，所以也不想再让你烦，你也一样的，没像以前一样什么事都会跟我说，好的坏的，开心的不开心的，也许是我们很少联络吧，我发现这就是我们距离的开始。每次通电话我真的都不懂该说些什么，每次都聊些废话，有时甚至普通聊天都会吵架，这是什么样的感觉？我想了很久还是不明白。。昨天我差点忍不住哭了出来，很想对你说：“对不起，也许我们真的属于不同世界，这样在一起只会让自己痛苦”。也许已经到了绝望的地步，现在甚至怀疑跟你在一起是已经从爱变成依赖？？？如果真的是，就让事情点通我，让我明白现在这种感觉是什么样的感觉。。

Love u~

家庭主妇

1 week of study week

这是一个无聊的假期~四姐跟妈妈到Kl游玩去了，所以我得担当“家庭主妇”的责任，照顾这个家，照顾把我养大敬爱的爸爸~可是每天都过得好无聊。。。起床后吃了早餐，就要开始想想要煮什么午餐，午餐后要晒衣，过后就是读书时间了（其实说读书应该说是上网才对）呵呵。。。没办法，手就是停不下来，手停不下来地一直按键盘，真搞不懂自己，明明害怕考试却又不害怕???!!!过后没多久又是想菜色时间，煮了也吃了晚餐后大概会呆在电视前直到十一点吧。。。（强！！！）就这样一天一天过了，终于又是回去宿舍“时辰”了。。。悲哀，虽然在家好无聊可是我宁愿这样地无聊，也不要在那独自一人过无聊的生活！！！

只拍下其中一天煮的午餐~

我家大约有70%是吃素的，所以所有炒的菜都不能放太多蒜米，因为我妈 妈说蒜米对吃素人的胃不好~

黄瓜（切好后）

清炒黄瓜（虽然看起来不是很美味但是我觉得还ok)

乳豆腐（加在上方的是素的江鱼仔）

刚下锅的绿豆（忘了拍煮好后的）

白叉烧

微波百叉烧


某天做的一件傻事

把肥皂粉放进去了却没有把它退进去！！

准备晒衣是才发现一直都只用清水在洗衣（傻到头顶！！）

Home Sweet Home...I Love My Sweet Sweet Home!!!!!!!!

想念~

藏得住的心情，却是藏不住的思念

虽然已经一个月的时间了，可是还是会不禁的想念你，8月21，是个难忘的

日子，我后悔我难过我自责，可是一切已经无法挽回，只有忍下心接受事实

~回想过去开心回忆，从小最被家人疼爱的你也会跟我打打架吵吵架，直到

你生病后再也没有像以前那样打架吵架了，疼爱你的我，也加倍地珍惜和疼

爱你。那时开始真的很想一直陪着你，虽然有时也懂得是无法医救了，可是

却还时时抱着满怀的希望，希望你康复，希望我们一家人再一起出去旅行~

当你再度站起来，那段时期真的好开心，就像以前那样讲讲笑笑跑来跑去的

你，我会一直记在心里，让你变成我心里最美丽的回忆~一直压抑着自己的

心情，不想别人为我担心，所以我一直表现得很坚强，直到现在都觉得自己

好像好冷血哦。上天决定把你带回他们身边，相信也是个好的开始，也相信

你现在跟着佛祖在极乐世界修炼吧~我们一家人一起努力过着自己的生活，

虽然你不在我们身边，可是我们还是一家人，永远都是，你永远是我心里最

爱最棒的弟弟！！

We love u forever n ever!!!